Childish

Just love me better, kiss me back, listen more,
Write these letters, ink in black, know what for.
Face down, layin in the dry grass,
Shame filled, transparent in an empty glass,
Birds taking flight as we run through,
while I'm dead to the world, what you gonna do?
If only I could rewind, to that please girl be mine,
Email denied, talk to me, there's no need to hide.
'Fore I go crazy, might do it maybe,
Time to flee, pay the fee, just to be free,
All I want is a place to feel where I belong,
Just trying to forget that there was something wrong,
Love is Russian roulette, gotta keep the safety on,
I can only be so strong, running low on braun,
You can hang but your boy is feeling low,
But we ain't even speaking anymore though,
We're slipping apart now, sleeping apart now, apart now,
I hope you understand that we were never friends,
Friends work to mend, try to blend, and tend to defend the other to the end,
Bend over backwards, transcend, pretend, but that all depends,
How much you willing to give and give up,
Trying to fill up her cup with a "hey baby, what's up"
You try harder believing and thinking you'll succeed,
The hunger you feed only leads to her greed until you concede,
Then hearts bleed with the speed of a stampede,
Peeling yourself off the floor, trampled, broken and bruised,
Misused, confused, abused, you've been excused, refused,
Even when you move on to another, but that one's out of reach.
Ventriloquism, holding back your speech, don't breech the friendship's fragile like a peach.
An angel from above, I hope he tells her so, let's her know.
Nobody has her glow, and whoa! She's beautiful, better not let her go bro..
Reality sets in, that'd never work, if I went there then I'd become the jerk,
So I bowed out with grace, though it's driving me berserk,
Silence grips the nights, alone I drown in these thoughts, distraught,
Wrought with the fears I fought, the love I sought was all for naught,
Dreams unkind, I try to unwind and find peace of mind,
My subconscious is undermined when unconfined, maligned to remind in kind,
Exhausted from the struggle, all I want's a break,
A day without the ache, people who aren't fake, a love that won't forsake,
I share this with you not for pitty, I don't mean to complain,
This pen and this paper, these words explain my pain,
Here is my domain to drain my brain, helps me maintain and refrain from going insane.